OKAY OKAY I’M WRITING!   hahaha, it’s been way too long, I know, don’t hate me.  So, I haven’t written in forever for a lot of reasons.  Really, it has a lot to do with…well…lots of excuses that don’t matter.  Because I realized lately that I have friends who really care if I write.  And that is so important to me, and I’m so thankful.  So, Tammy Brown, little miss, this one’s for you.

This coming weekend we’re going to the marriage retreat that Sandals goes on, btw which Tammy does a kick-ass job at putting together.  This marriage retreat celebrates the year anniversary of my husband quitting porn for real.  Like realizing the lie he was being told and yanked the burden in our marriage out.  I’m so incredibly proud of him.  Today, we went shopping for pretty clothes for us to wear on semi-formal night, and we pretty much spent any budget we had to go OUT at the marriage retreat on the clothes we’re going to wear while we’re there.  Matt found amazing things at H&M, and to my dismay, they had almost no dresses.  So after a long day of looking, I finally found a rad dress at, yes, Macy’s, which is much less cool than H&M.  But, nonetheless, I won’t walk the red carpet in jeans.  I  just love hanging out with Matt, and now my job is keeping that time to a minimal amount lately.  I feel like I’m just working myself to the bone, but just because learning to care for really sick babies is incredibly stressful.  The NICU at Loma Linda is a very intense place.  I’m privileged to be a part of it, but I’m very excited to not be a new person anymore.  I’m just trying not to put too much pressure on myself.  So Matt has been wonderful about it all, and I’m realizing how comfortable I am with him.  I think we’ve come to a new point in our marriage in the last few months, where we feel very settled in.  At least I feel that way.  Our good friend Daley put this pic up on his blog the night I cooked dinner for us all:  

So thanks Tammy, and everyone else who loves me and thinks of me.  I’m doing good.  Hopefully it won’t be too long for another update.  Peace out for now.