I’m sorry I’ve been so horrible about keeping up. For those of you that actually like to know what’s going on, there’s a lot! Matt’s doing Hume again. So while I’m the incredibly proud and supportive friend to him, it’s also going to be a bit of a lonely winter. It’s flying by already. I’m at one of our favorite coffee shops by where we live. I love coffee shops with my man. And while it’s still good for me to be stimulated and surrounded by people, it’s never the same as looking up from my books or my keyboard and catching his eyes over my paper cup. There’s a sense of pride and independence that comes with staying home while he’s away. I have to depend on God to help me make the right decisions, and I can buy whatever groceries I want. And while I learn so much and grow each time we face time apart, I’ll always prefer his presence with me, in whatever capacity that entails.

It’s times like these that God reveals himself the most, and reminds me of His constant sovereignty. I found a journal this weekend I kept during the time when I met Matt through when we were dating, and into our engagement. The journal was full of all these prayers to God for and about Matt, and whether this guy was “the one”. I remember the intense rush of just writing his name down on paper and seeing it in my own handwriting. And as I read the prayers, I realized how much God has answered in the 2 1/2 years it’s been since we met. How I prayed that Matt would be the one and that if he was, that he would pursue me and I would know by his approaching me in our relationship that it was from God. Man, he sure proved it! He married me 9 months after we met. In March we’re celebrating 2 years. I’m just so overwhelmed how much God reminds me of how in love I still am with Matt, and what his companionship means to me. And beyond that, God has grown me so much in a year’s time since Matt last did Hume. I can be alone now with much less fear. I’m still sad to be away from my hubby, but I’m not afraid we’ll fall apart if we’re alone anymore. I live in my marriage with a strong sense of security and faith that only comes with time and trust, and God’s incredible grace. If anything has proved that we can withstand the fire and make it, it’s what we’ve been through this last year, even just since the marriage retreat in November. It’s all a whole long story that involves an even longer process. But all in all, as Matt put it, we’ve come a long way in a really short amount of time.

While this is more of a love letter than an update, it’s where my heart is at. I’m so excited to see Matt tomorrow. As much as he drives me crazy(!), he’s my baby and I can’t stand life without him.